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Clouded faces, unraveled graces

enchanted tunnels of a ruined city

Guided by clustered lights fallen from heaven’s traces

Man proceeds on a distant excursion

Surrounded by emerald forests and blistering storms

Influenced by Renaissance and Medievalism of Florence eluding our memory

Travels promise family inquisition and mystical empowerment beyond belief

Blood baths and traps of hell seem wrenching

But selfish desires and abandonment of mentors and nurses

Bring forth the deadly fates into hearts

Leaving virtues of the left and right cheek

to be left with the forgotten Untermensch

The Savior is no more for those whose blood is wine

but the same fires scorned of greed are left

with fortune; left with nothing

Born to never die in banishment.

Central Europe

Nicilija Macklis

One More Smile

Driving never seemed so sweet

Passing stop signs and red cautioned tape,

But your smile is all I need

When my head spins round and round

Nothing but floating words graze my view

Persisting at every chance

Although never over baring;

Focused and kindled, but never crowded

All I need is a smile

Then the world turns upside down

Waking up, Laying down

Puts my heart at ease

As you let my mind wander,

Is this different?

It doesn’t matter

Cause all that is becomes simple

No need to press,

No need to rush

Just a kiss to fit the pieces.

Ever changing is this constant

Missing every test for good fortune

Just a Love that is noted with passion

Just a Love that is growing.

Distant from any unknowing banter

He spreads out his wings like armor

Pushing away any misleading hatred,

As my lips continuously stay in motion.

Questions begin to spring

Jumping and prancing as flowers in Spring Time

Calming it is with every answer you give

Sincerity is ever flowing;

Into kindness that surprises me

Into understanding you put me in ponder

Through an uncharted journey

That draws me upward,

Endlessly bringing freedom into possibilities.

Uncharted I repeat!

Uncharted I repent.

But without fear you carry my imperfections

Without greed you decide to still kiss me

Without judgment, you smile back;

And all I can be is with you

Who only needed mine in return.

So I say, So I am

A smile that will give

A smile that I need;

Because a smile is all I ever wanted.

Nicilija Macklis

Christmas Time w/o phone

Ok...I told you I would be posting another soon. lol.. I came on to post this "Christmas Time" thing and went off on a rant that had to be discussed anyway. I have been living w/o a phone for for the last 2 weeks, and at first it was 'HELL ON WHEELS,' but it slowly became a blessing. I am usually a guy that "GETS THE BIGGER PICTURE" but hey I am human and "SHIT HAPPENS." With my phone gone I was able to be more in the moment then I have ever been able to. Yes I do need a phone for my business, and honestly like everyone else, "I'M NOT SPECIAL." But during the Holidays it has been ok. I spent time with some of my great family friends ( Regina Lopez, Caroline, Brit, and Jessica) going Ice skating the other day, and yesterday saw a movie with someone who is and has always been special to me, why it didn't work out, no idea. ACTUALLY, I lied , I know exactly why it didn't, but it was out of my hands. lol....=) But sorry, that was not my point. You will discover as I write future blogs that i am very scatter brains, but usually it's for a good reason..lol..Right now I am listening to "IMOGEN HEAP"- 'First Train Home'. Her voice really calms me down, but anyway, SHIT, LOL,....."The Holidays" thats right, um...lets back track. ..lets see ..umm....thats right...

THE PHONE THING- with out my phone during this holiday , with the phone being gone, I think I enjoyed the moments with my great friends even more. I didn't have any annoying ringing, sounds of missed calls, STUPID- text messages of "WHAT AM I DOING RIGHT NOW"- when they know exactly where I am. lol...it was really nice. I didn't ask for any Christmas gifts, because that's not how i am, but that was a definite gift from God. Thanx. Now heading to get ready for the family 'EVENT OF THE YEAR" and what i mean by that is "MY AUNTS HOUSE, WHERE THE SOUNDS OF BABIES OF ALL AGES, COME TOGETHER'". LOL...haha I' m  telling the truth, but I STILL LUV IT.- Merry Christmas Eve.........!!!!@#$%^&*;)

HASTA

Nicilija