My life as been obviously a rollercoaster, like many, but I do not forget the accounts of blessing I have received along the way. I have been lucky to be able to study some of the greatest minds in history and some that possibly others do not even know, to help me guide my way. At times I have made the choice not to listen, but in the end we always need to come back home. With this in mind, I ask you to read with intellect rather than judgment and understanding rather than pure curiosity.
It is hard enough to discover yourself when life’s simple gestures just happen. With fears tagging along it makes sense to why we put our efforts into opportunities that we are good at, rather than the pleasures that give us passion. This is the hard part. Choosing which way and which direction is suited for my life. To move in a blessing that thrives me based around people that I love, around a “Luck” that so many wish could take my place, or to choose a path that is quiet unsure. Teddy Roosevelt stated, “Far better it is to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checkered by failure, than to take rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much, because they live in the gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat.” Is this other a passion? YES, but to be in something that is moved by people that I am around is not exactly self-satisfying. Fear should not be a moment of weakness, but something that allows us time to figure things out. Therefore, we must not stay in fear but move on.
I know we have all been at that time in life where decisions have to be made based on coming back to why we are here. The reasoning of why we started out on our journey before loosing those goals because of “The Avenues we decided to change to get there.” I apologize if this does not make sense. I tend to go in circles sometimes. The point of the matter lies in the question defining the necessity of adulthood. “Do I have to be a Big Boy Now?” The answer is YES!!! That not only means doing things on your own, but also making big decisions that can affect people that you care about. One of my other favorite quotes is when Michelangelo said, “If people knew how hard I worked to get my mastery, it wouldn't seem so wonderful after all. “ You can take this to the obvious, but I have always understood that we are going to see it through the circumstances that we are in now. The way I look at it is we don’t know, between the cracks, of what happened for him to get to this idled character in history. The day-to-day obstacles and battles other than the ones recorded. HE WAS NOT ALWAYS MICHELANGELO…. But what we do know is he did what he had to do, but than went back to his first love of sculpting.
This probably seems unimportant, but it is a moment that I am in again. I am not saying by all means that I am compared to these people in time, but who knows. I have big dreams like you do, and passions that have been curved by my own faults. I address a man named Gerald Levin when he wrote, “I want my identity back. I don’t want to be known as the CEO…I’m my own person. I have strong moral Convictions. I’m not just a suit. I want poetry back in my life.” I guess that is the reality of the thing. To be able to move at my own will. To be able to breathe without holding my breath, and to be able to spread my wings out and just fly.
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